I lose my mind when it comes to you i take time with the ones i choose lyrics - Illenium

I have my son and my husband! I'm a motherfuckin' train wreck I don't wanna be too much But I don't wanna miss your touch And you don't seem to give a fuck I don't wanna keep you waiting But I do just what I have to do And I might not be the one for you But you ain't allowed to have no boo 'Cause I know we be so complicated But we be so smitten, it's crazy I can't have what I want, but neither can you You ain't my boyfriend Boyfriend And I ain't your girlfriend Girlfriend But you don't want me to see nobody else And I don't want you to see nobody But you ain't my boyfriend Boyfriend And I ain't your girlfriend Girlfriend But you don't want me to touch nobody else Nobody Baby, we ain't gotta tell nobody Even though you ain't mine, I promise the way we fight Make me honestly feel like we just in love Love 'Cause, baby, when push comes to shove Shove Damn, baby, I'm a train wreck, too Too I lose my mind when it comes to you I take time with the ones I choose And I don't want a smile if it ain't from you, yeah I know we be so complicated Lovin' you sometimes drive me crazy 'Cause I can't have what I want and neither can you No, no You ain't my boyfriend Boyfriend And I ain't your girlfriend Girlfriend But you don't want me to see nobody else And I don't want you to see nobody But you ain't my boyfriend Boyfriend And I ain't your girlfriend Girlfriend But you don't want me to touch nobody else Nobody Baby, we ain't gotta tell nobody I wanna kiss you Yeah , don't wanna miss you Yeah But I can't be with you 'cause I got issues No Yeah, on the surface, seem like it's easy Careful with words, but it's still hard to read me Stress high when the trust low Mmm Bad vibes, where'd the fun go? The days are better for me being the youngest but my eldest sister and dad who were closer to my mum are not taking it well.

My Dad and Brother were able to see each other for the last time.

Comforting to know others are experiencing this.

I am grateful I had a long time with him and my mom, but the fact that they were so loving makes me feel even more alone.